My mind plays games with me sometimes, or most of the time .
Sometimes i feel that i've been chosen out of thousands of people to just be a very complicated person or live a very "complicated" life . I have everything i need and i'm very grateful but it's not about that. I also have this other thing, my mind. And it can work either ways: as a blessing and as a curse.
A blessing cause it makes me have imagination, be inspired and dream, but its a curse too because those same things take me really far from reality.
I over think every thought that goes into my head and mind and i know that is never NEVER good.
I've been told that because of that i'm never going to be able to be at peace with myself, that i'm never going to be able to relax and that i'm going to complicate life for myself when it should be really easy.
I have my times of happiness but all of the sudden, my mind comes in.
I'm not saying i'm not happy, i'm saying that it's different, i'm different.
I can remember every thought thats been through my mind since i was little, i remember what i used to say, what i felt and who i was. I realize i'm still that 11 year old girl with the same dreams and the same mind. I need to keep myself busy and my mind busy so i won't start thinking all this crazy things that keep me awake at night.
I don't sleep, i can spend the entire night just thinking and do that every day, sometimes its good but some other times i get tired. Mentally.
I have my good days and even though i do complicate things and that even though i may grow up being the same just like that 11 years old girl i once was and still am i am me, with my heart, soul and complicated mind i am me and i would never give up that.
All off these makes me who i am and it gives me passion for the things i like and i think you can see that in my photography work.
That photograph is at least two years old, but i haven't post it here on the blog and it's me representing how i feel when my mind play games.
On other news, some of my photographs were printed on a local magazine:
it's a small feature but i really liked it, people in my city got to see it so that makes me feel good.
And FINALLY! i was able to take pictures with my new 5D Mark II and i had this idea in my mind for a long time and i was finally able to do it. I worked with an amazing team including the model and designer, they were all great. I have a very small sneak peek for you to see:
Just a cellphone pic of the camera screen. I'm about to retouch them so as soon as i have them i'll share them with you!