"I have this very silly fear, that one day i'll be old without ever having really been young"
Imagine having this thought every second and every hour of your life.
You know you are supposed to enjoy life, every minute of it and not worrying about the end of things yet the only thing you do is that, thinking about how life is going to turn out for you instead of enjoying the ride.
I'm sure one day i'll be old, i have no idea how i'm going to be or where. There's a part of my brain that doesn't let me see beyond my years, i can't see myself as a grown person or as an old lady. I visualize everything, and plan everything ahead of time, i'm a creator and an architect of things and days that haven't happened and yet i can't seem to be able to do one of the most simple things humans do: visualize yourself in years, i jus't cant.
Maybe is because since i have memory my thoughts has always been the same and maybe they will continue like that when i'm 50 .
I don't really mind that. As long as i do things.
I want and need to do things.
I would hate to depend on chemicals to get things done, i would just want to wake up one day wanting to do things and actually do them.
I desire that.
Self portraits taken yesterday or today from 1 am to 6 am.
All taken by me .
Imagine having this thought every second and every hour of your life.
You know you are supposed to enjoy life, every minute of it and not worrying about the end of things yet the only thing you do is that, thinking about how life is going to turn out for you instead of enjoying the ride.
I'm sure one day i'll be old, i have no idea how i'm going to be or where. There's a part of my brain that doesn't let me see beyond my years, i can't see myself as a grown person or as an old lady. I visualize everything, and plan everything ahead of time, i'm a creator and an architect of things and days that haven't happened and yet i can't seem to be able to do one of the most simple things humans do: visualize yourself in years, i jus't cant.
Maybe is because since i have memory my thoughts has always been the same and maybe they will continue like that when i'm 50 .
I don't really mind that. As long as i do things.
I want and need to do things.
I would hate to depend on chemicals to get things done, i would just want to wake up one day wanting to do things and actually do them.
I desire that.
Self portraits taken yesterday or today from 1 am to 6 am.
All taken by me .
I adore your blog and your photographs are absolutely amazing. This series caught my eye especially - that quote pretty much summed up my life. Unfortunately, I get how you feel. I always like the console myself with that thought that should I grow old, turn 50 and look back, realising I haven't lived my life to the fullest, I'd like to think that though my body may not have lived, my mind certainly has.
ReplyDeleteKind regards,
Tess
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