You have the saddest eyes.

I had completely different words to share with this images but found these and I just felt like I should post these words instead.

These are some photographs I took at the start of the year but was unsure about uploading.

You have the saddest eyes I've ever seen

they are a mixture between wild and nostalgic.

you smile, but they don't.

you go wild, and they go wild with you but the sadness is still there.

I see it.

And I am amazed at how people don't.

I guess it is because I am very familiar with them.

they look back at me in the mirror every day.

yours are different but all the same.

I can see through you honey, but you don't know that yet.

I don't know if you'll ever know.

I don't know if your sad eyes will ever let you see.

I don't know if they will ever let you see me.

and you.

or us.

but believe me when I say: You have the saddest eyes.

It takes one to know one.

so take it from me.

-M

MY GATE OF FEAR .

I crossed through the gate of fear

and I was welcomed by the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen.

The kind of eyes that tell you they could love you.

and the kind of eyes that tell you they may deceive you.

I sat in front of them and all i wanted to do was to count your eyelashes.

All I wanted was to see through them.

and I think I did.

I crossed through the gate of fear.

The one I built for myself.

and I didn't stumble.

 I saw you.

and my heart wondered if love lies on your bare skin.

or in your eyes.

or in every single one of your eyelashes.

The same ones that I want to count.

but it also wondered if it would see itself broken on your bare hands.

the same hands that I want to touch.

and the same skin that I want to melt into mine.

I crossed through my gate of fear.

and I realize it didn't give me a yes or a no answer.

or a "love" or "heartbreak" answer.

but it gave me you.

and it is with you that I'll find the answer.

-M

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This is the last day of the year and I'm supposed to do a post about what happened in 2014 but I haven't figured it out yet so I guess that will wait until the first days of January. I hope. So instead I'm sharing a recent self portrait and some words I wrote a few months back. And to be honest, one of my favorites.

If you are wondering about what I wrote...Yes, I think I found my answer. 

Whatever that means.