Seeking a Great Perhaps .

    Hello everyone!
         i've been feeling down lately, really dont know why but my humor just changed one day and its still not back to normal.
        I have a couple of pictures to show you that includes a phrase that means a lot to me "seeking a great perhaps"  and thats what this post is about.
i found this phrase/quote on a book that i'm currently reading, its called "Looking for Alaska" and i can totally relate to the main character and why he says that.  The original phrase its actually from a french writer, those where his last words before he died: "i go to seek a great perhaps"  so in the book the main character is bored with his life and wants to go to a different city to find something new and when they ask him why he wants to go he says the same thing, that he goes to seek a great perhaps.
Those words really captured me. I find myself almost in the same position as the character in the book: kinda bored  with my life, trying to do different things, trying to get out of the same routine i've been doing for the past 19 years of my life. I've tried before and i've failed due to problems that i can't change and are not my fault. My parents and people ask me , "so, what do you want to do?" or "why do you feel this way?"  and everytime i answered i ended up really mad at myself because i couldn't explain,  they didn't understand.
I knew it al along that this was my answer , but i can finally say what i want to do or what i am doing.
Next time they ask me why do i want to go, i have my answer:  i want to go to seek a great perhaps .
I actually NEED that great perhaps, and i'll make it happen one way or another .

ps. you can ask me anything on my formspring or just say whatever that you want to say, even share a story.

I GROW FLOWERS .

Helloo, this post includes some photographs i already uploaded to flickr but i think it would be good to explain the concept behind the photographs and why  the " i grow flowers" theme .
ok well, like i said in my last post , my life has been pretty crazy lately, i'm back home again i had to make some decisions about university that i'm not happy about but theres nothing i can do about it. So all those decisions i had to do in so little time were driving me crazy, for real. This past year i've been living really ansious , stressed, depressed and overthinking EVERYTHING and im so so tired of all that, mentally tired.
What i really want to do is just enjoy, enjoy my life and every little detail there is because obviously i havent been doing that and i need to, so i'm asking myself : if theres nothing you can do about this , if you are staying home and not going to another city to college , why  not enjoy what you have? so that's what im really trying to do. I don't know if i'm gonna succeed on that but i really hope so , for my own sake.
And thats why i started developing the series "i grow flowers". For me this series represent that i need to do the best with what i have , leave the bullshit behind and start living my life or in other words : start growing life.
I need to start growing positive things that will make me act and think different so one day i can actually say "i'm happy" .
So, thats what these pictures represent : the start of this hopefully new ME growing all these things i need .

selfportraits

All taken by me , unless quoted.

All rights Reserved .

RANDOM .

 HELLO!  I know..... it's  been months since i last posted something, my bad . My life has been pretty crazy lately since i dropped university from the city i moved to in January and needed to decide what university to go and where before it was too late ! I'm a little bit more relaxed now and i'm back home so i'll try and do my best to not let this blog die .Two days ago i took pictures of a friend of mine, so of course i wanted to have pictures taken so we exchanged positions several times. It was not a proper shoot but her pictures ended up pretty good and i know she'll be very pleased .  I'll share with you some pictures of that day but these are just random pics to just post something. I need to post more often and keep you guys updated on what i'm doing. I'm planning some shoots and i know i've been saying that for a while now but its not easy to find pretty girls that would like to model for me and besides, i'm very picky when it comes to that .I have 2 shoots in mind and i promise promise i'll do them and share the pics with you. I have also been getting a lot of request of pictures , even from bathing suits stores and stuff so if i ever get to work on that , i'll share the images soon! It seems now that working as a photographer is actually happening .
Enjoy the pictures and expect more blog post to come!
Also :   Ask me anything http://formspring.me/monicacsalomon
OH! and if anyone out there knows how to change this blog and make it prettier and wants to help me that would be great! please!

  
And now, some pics of my lovely friend :

Nature & Youth .

Okey ! , so this is my second blog post and this time i have some pictures i took over the weekend.

 I love taking pictures of me and everything but for my next shoots i want to try and do a shoot with a model, like its supposed to be right?  i mainly do self portraits , but lets change things a bit. I decided to take pictures outdoors and in the golden hour and stuff since a lot of my portraits are of inside shoots. Thanks to my cousin who helped me take some of the pictures! and well, then we put the tripod and of course we had people staring but thats ok, we didnt care that much.

I have some ideas for other shoots since i want to start developing my style in photography so i have some interesting ideas but if you have suggestions let me know :).

So now, the pictures! :

 An this is my cousin ho helps me in my shoots :)

So there you go, i still have more pictures to edit but i think that these are the ones i liked the most oh and also let me just say that i never let my hair down, i always have my hair up in a bun, and i mean ALWAYS! but for this shoot just wanted something different, so hair down and a fedora semmed like a good way to go.
Done, enjoy the pics.
Cheers!

Monica.

sunny day at a parking lot .

Helloo everyonee :) , this is my first blog and my first time ever writing an entry. I had the idea of starting a blog to talk a little about me and to post some of my pictures and shoots that sometimes i dont post on my flickr, and just because i think is fun to have a blog !
 I'm having a little bit of trouble trying to get the blog to look just like i want to but once i get familiar with this i'll make it prettier and add a banner and stuff.
okay, so i'll start by talking a little about me: since january i moved to a big city here in Mexico  to start studying photography and its both good and nostalgic at the same time. I miss my home terribly and my social life too. I think this new experience will make me grow up, do different things and i dont know, maybe medite for a while but i hope i dont start to think to much 'cause that always ruins things for me.
I still dont know if i'll be able to hang and stay here for the next 3 years until i graduate but i mean, i have big plans for me so i'll try and stay strong for my own sake.
I'm living with some uncles and cousins so when i'm at the house i am not that alone, and one of the greatest things is that i get along pretty well with my cousin so we have a little fun thinkin about what to shoot next and to go and take pictures :).
And nowww some picturess! this are from last month, we went to a parking lot and took these, hope you like this and the pics ill show you on my next posts. :)