Revelry .

    I've been out of words lately, theres nothing major happening in this town and i'm about to start another semester full of nothing to do but work and projects.

  This winter vacations felt a little bit like the good old times, my friends where in town. I really didn't know how much i miss the good old times until i start to really have fun like i used to.

Please 2012, give me something good! i know something will happen, i know .

I really need to blog more, oh and i changed the blog a little bit, just to have a fresh new start! 

Nothing interesting to talk about so now, pictures.

These are kinda different to what i am used to do, i almost never use warm tones or warm colors on my self portraits so i changed things up a bit for my first self portraits of the year, here they are :

ask something!

All pictures by me.

2011 RETROSPECTIVE .

i don't want to complain about my 2011, i wish i had just positive comments about it. Nothing REALLY bad happened but it was a tough year, maybe i learned a thing or two in this 2011.

 Finally we are on 2012 and as this is my first post of the year i just want to pour happy and positive thoughts on me, i need them, i need to make  this year better and bigger than the last one .

I hope 2012 will be a year full of happines, friends, new people, travels, work, life and more .

Haven't take pictures since i'm in vacations and i'm resting, plus i've been sick this entire time! first stomach  flue then a really bad cold but i'll be soon shooting some film hopefully BUT i have no other pics to show you. What i'm going to do is to show you a few photographs of 2011 and how it all went.

 My 2011 started by me moving out to a new city to study photography, stayed there for a semester and unfortanately had to move back home again due to some problems, spent summer and the entire year here in my hometown, new school, different life.

Hope this 2012 brings lots of good things to me and to everyone, and i hope i can move out again this year and travel lots .

I really wish this post an these words were a little bit more "poetic", promise that for next posts.

and now, random pics of 2011.

                  first self portraits in the new city i moved to on january.

cold day in Monterrey near my birthday.

Me by the window.

Me at a parking lot before exploring the city with my sister to take some photographs.

City at night by the car .

5 de Mayo street.

  Cell phone pic of Elle Girl korea magazine where they had an article with some of my photographs of my bedroom.

Exploring Downtown with my sister. (iphone pic)

Man playing the saxofon at downtown.

 A wall of the photo studio at my ex school.  cellphone pic. 

My cousin on left and me on the right. We lived together.

Nostalgia thoughts by the window after returning home .

My hometown.

Hometown.

Spent my summer painting.

 My bag looked like these on photo days.

 My car, my dog and me. (film)

That was a little bit of my 2011, i'll make sure to document my life on photographs.

Go ahead and ask or say something on formspring, would like to hear from you.

FILM .

Hello,

I guess this is going to be a slightly different post than usual. I'm finally on winter break FREE  for a while, i really needed this time .
Its good for me to keep myself busy  so that way i wont fall into my over thinking process and into my nostalgia phase but i also like having time for myself and i think this Decemeber is going to be great month for that.
i have no "theme" for this particular post, i just want to keep in contact and post regularly.
Today i have no special photos to share BUT i do have something to show you. I've been taking film photographs and experimenting with film and i have my first roll, so thats what i'm sharing: my first film photographs, nothing special really just some photos of me around my citys downtown, my car my dog and stuff like that, this way you can see me and my surroundings. Thats whats this post is about.
I'm still taking lots of film photos so expect some more in the future, i think film is growing on me .

 On my last shoot ( the pics of my last post) i decided to take some with film :

 

my mom and the christmas tree .

   Looking For Alaska, my favorite book .

   My car, my dog and me .

Looking For Alaska .

BIG DREAMS .

        Crowded streets, city lights, tall buildings, walls full of art, people running around late for work, coffee shops full of lovers of good literature, taxi men full of stories to talk with passengers, inspiration .

        
      Those are some of the few things that come to my mind when i think about New York City.
     Cliche? Not at all .
  
     This blog post is called "Big Dreams", because THIS all of what i'm mentioning here is my dream.  Living in New York, build a life there, start in a small apartment and then move my way up, walk the streets of this city and be amazed at what i see.  I want to be a photographer, be involved in film, fashion, everything and theres where New York City comes in.  What a better city  to be all that? Just NY.
  You may think why am i not talking about Paris if i want to do all that,  and i'm not saying i'll never live in Paris but, New York has  my heart.

     I'm 19 i wanted to go to college there, unfortunately money  was not on my side so i was not able to go but BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY  that one day i'll be there and i'll wake up to a beautiful view of the city from my window, i'll walk the streets and take pictures of absolutely everything, every day, every hour, every minute, every second.  I'll never get tired of taking pictures there, and it won't matter if its the same picture of the same place at the same hour, because i will always find something different and thats the beauty of NY.
I've never been to NY and yes, i know some of you are thinking "why is she talking and saying all of this about NY if she have never visited?"   I would think the same, but like i said New York has my heart and thats why  right now i don't need to visit to know all of this because well.. i just know.
  I can't wait to visit the city of my dreams, the city where i want to move and build a part of my life, meet people and cultivate what i do and what  i like to do.
i know its not far away.
I've always been a girl that over think stuff but most important i've always been a girl that dreams a lot, and i dream big.
I think we all need that, so go ahead and do it : DREAM BIG .


Monica.

ps. These are some pictures i took yesterday, well actually today like at 5 am obviously inspired in NY. The self portrait is my picture and the overlay picture of New York is not mine, i found it and wanted to create something just for doing art. So credits for the NY picture  go to whoever took it .

black and white version , which one do you prefer?

      and a simple self portrait .

Any questions?   www.formspring.me/monicacsalomon

TRAGIC FLAW .

it seems that every time i try to write something in this blog its about me wanting to do something different. wanting to go places or change things but nothing ever happens.
 I recently came across a video of a tv series i used to like, and on the video the character is reading an essay he wrote and it was about his  "tragic flaw" saying that he couldn't change, that the more things change, the more they stay the same. And that really got me thinking...its absolutely true.
  No matter how bad i want things to change, they don't.  why? i would love to know but i don't.

So yeah, my tragic flaw is basically the same : my inability to change.
and oohh what a flaw.

 There are quotes around that says that the people who look the happiest, or are always smiling are the ones that once they get home, they feel lonely and cry at the comfort of their loneliness and i can assure you, this is totally true because i am one of those people and i never even realized .
Sometimes i think, am i the only one thinking all these things? am i really this fucked up? why the hell do i have to always think think think and rethink everything? that gets me nowhere, and as much as i try i cannot change that and thats my tragic flaw.

I'm looking forward to write one day on this blog and be proud to say that i've changed. I know that "change" doesn't happen over night and by the time that we change maybe we don't even notice. But once we do we don't really want to go back, cause thats what life is about right?  to enjoy and become a better person.

Maybe a lot of people share the same tragic flaw, maybe we are having a hard time to change and yes it is bad, but we are not killing anyone...maybe ourselves a little .

Monica.

( i'm sharing these pictures taken last week, all self portraits. Thanks to my friend Maleny for helping me out to take these pictures. I promise something a little but more artsy for my next post . )

ps. i'm answering questions on formspring so if you want to ask something go ahead, i'll answer!  www.formspring.com/monicacsalomon
i also recently just created a facebook page, go visit please!

doing silly faces .